Changing Directions?

Today I received the exciting phone call, telling me that I had been offered the job in Mexico! I have not responded yet, as I am still waiting to read a contract and find out some more specifics about the job, however if everything works out, I am pretty sure that I will accept (so cross your fingers)!

The past few days I have been reflecting on what taking this job would mean for me. Thinking about this new life possibility of traveling and living in Mexico has been both challenging and confusing. I have had to face fears and sort out emotions in order to make the move to formulate my decision. Doing this has been tough for me, as I have never had to make this big of a decision before in my life. The thought of giving up my current jobs (both of which are great), community, leaving friends and family etc. to take on this new adventure is a scary one. I find myself facing a doorway where I can choose to stay where I am, or go ahead and courageously open it up to new experiences. However, as I prepare to open this door and expand, this expansion will require imagination, cost, risk and creativity – but it’s reward will result in me living one of my dreams.

As I think about this new life, I oftentimes scare myself and find myself retreating into old habits and insecurities. I think that this is occurring because I have structures in place within my life that are now being threatened by a new vitality. However, being able to let go of these so that I will be able to feel alive instead of depressed will require change and loss, but will hopefully result in a much stronger, happier Me.

I still am not 100% sure on my decision, but my mom told me that whatever path I choose to go down will bring to me the experiences that I am supposed to receive, and I will handle them as they come my way. And, as Eckhart Tolle says “Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.”

Stay tuned for a future update…..hopefully one will be coming soon……