February 2, 2004

I have a week left in Minneapolis and today I am starting to pack up my house to get ready to move. As a rule, I am a terrible packer, because I always get distracted by reading old journals, looking at old pictures, reminiscing about my life, looking through old books....seriously when I pack alone, it takes me forever.

So today while I was supposed to be diligently packing, I came across an old journal of mine and I flipped open to the following journal entry. I read it and couldn't believe what I had written.

Feb. 2, 2004
"Tonight I received an email from Greta and it was all about her adventures in Mexico. While reading it, my longing for adventure became more intense. There is something inside of me that feels like I need to go somewhere alone, by myself for awhile. I need to take an adventure - my basic self is craving it. I want to be completely independent and have adventures and be free. I want to be on my own and not have attachment. I want to find my true self - and perhaps I have to do that without Tyler....."

I read that and was like "holy crap, how spooky". I have been wanting this ever since then, knowing that this was someday coming and that I had to do it without Tyler....There was a part of me that knew. Knew that this was my life plan. Reading that helps to reiterate why I am leaving, why I am going to Mexico, why I am going on this adventure alone....it's because I have always wanted it. It has always been part of my plan - it's just that I got side-tracked for awhile.